Chapter 18

THE DOOR OF TRUST
Pretty Flower (laughing): "We would be talking today." Brock: "Would we be walking?" Pretty Flower: "We would be walking and talking." Brock: "You don't know - well, you probably do know - what an honor it is to be at this stage of the progression." From a session in July 1986

After Eileen and I worked together in January, 1985, I rested, studying and assimilating the information that had come forward in the Gatherings and savoring the experience itself. Eileen, back in her New Hampshire home, was not just resting. During the six months before I saw her again, two significant things happened: Pretty Flower came through without a guide, and Eileen began to work with a new guide. Pretty Flower's appearance solo, so to speak (to use her characteristic phrase), occurred in a most prosaic way. Eileen was to be one of the subjects of an article about childhood psychic abilities, and she asked a friend to take pictures of her to go with the article. The friend later told me this story. When they finished taking the pictures, Eileen spoke casually about her feeling that Pretty Flower was almost ready to come through unassisted. "I wonder if she would do it now," she said to the friend. "I'd love to have you take pictures of her." "Try," said the friend, poising the camera and fiddling with the exposure settings. Eileen closed her eyes and let it happen.
In only a few minutes - two, perhaps - her eyes closed. Her face, hands, and body assumed Pretty Flower's characteristic posture. Pretty Flower spoke, introducing herself and telling a charming 20 minute story for the friend before leaving again of her own volition. The friend was flabbergasted (she had had no experience with channeling) and had just enough wit to continue to take pictures.

Eileen was elated. Pretty Flower had come through on her own - without an induction, without any additional procedure. This meant Eileen could continue to work in New Hampshire without my presence as a guide. This she did, holding one or two sessions a week for groups near her home, working to become an ever clearer, more open channel for Pretty Flower.

Eileen's New Guide

Meanwhile, another person was beginning to take a role in her development. Brock Hood had known Eileen for some time in other circumstances. Their communication began with hypnosis and continued with past life exploration. When he heard of her work as a channel he was eager to learn more. He attended a few group sessions, but he wanted something different from what the group could offer. He began coming to Eileen's house once a week, every week, asking if she would channel. Brock wanted to work with Pretty Flower directly; later, of course, they realized that he was asking to do the work of a guide. He studied hypnosis techniques and learned to communicate with Pretty Flower, learning her language and way of answering his questions. A strong foundation was built, and they learned much together. Eileen trusted and respected him.

Waiting for Pretty Flower

In June, Eileen and Brock visited us in Virginia for a week. His purpose was to work on opening, in order to channel; her purpose was clear too, as you will see in a minute. What a week it was! Brock and Eileen told some of their friends about the visit. We told some of our friends. Suddenly, spontaneously, more than a dozen people were there. We worked and we played. European friends, an Austrian and an Italian who were traveling cross country, extended their stay at our house. Helmut led a group in that worked on opening to the energies of the universe by assuming positions he taught while making the sound of runes. To demonstrate the power of the runes, four people picked up our friend, Dan, with two fingers each! They tried it three times and actually carried him around the deck with their fingers. Robert, our Italian friend, who speaks almost no English, wanted me to hypnotize him, and though I normally don't do such stage type work, I did so, and succeeded in spite of the language barrier.

Daniel Clay came by one day and I guided him in a group reading on our deck, the first either of us had done outdoors. We had a brainstorming session to percolate ideas for a "school for prophets and guides"; you will read some of the fruits of that session in Chapter 20. I guided Brock through an amazing past life regression and through his first time channeling. The reading was clear and we were all excited for him. He was as ready to channel as to guide. I guided seven or eight major sessions that week; other people guided sessions among themselves. For me, the most incredible sessions were the ones with Eileen. As I said, her purpose in coming to Virgina was clear. Pretty Flower had told her what it was. She - Pretty Flower - was ready for a full entry into Eileen's embodiment. Pretty Flower had asked Eileen come to Virginia to work with me on this new and intensive procedure.
What it meant was this. Until now, when Pretty Flower came forward, Eileen stayed in the background as much as possible. She was aware of Pretty Flower's entrance; they met, embraced, and danced together. Then Eileen made room for Pretty Flower, becoming part, as she says, of "a Blue Mist at the top of my head." Pretty Flower then made her appearance to the rest of us, the two of them co-inhabiting Eileen's body.
When Eileen returned fully from her trance, she remembered some, but by no means all, of what Pretty Flower had communicated to us. In other words, until now a part of Eileen's consciousness had monitored the sessions, although there were gaps in which she had no awareness. Now this would change. Pretty Flower had requested Eileen's full body during the sessions. It was time to allow a full entering of Pretty Flower and exiting of the consciousness of Eileen. Eileen was prepared for and accepting of the necessity for a full exiting; indeed, she was eager for it to happen.

The First Full Entry and Exit

On the afternoon of June 12, Eileen and Brock and my wife and I went alone to a quiet room; we did not ask the others to be present, as we were attempting a major change and wanted as little distraction as possible. Also we were not sure what form the transition would take. Pretty Flower had long ago requested us not to use the Cayce levels when guiding her entry. For this session, however, she had asked us to use them, so I guided Eileen through the chakra system and on through the levels as Cayce had described them. Next I guided the entry to Pretty Flower and requested a full entry.

EILEEN June 12, 1986 Independence, Virginia
The Entry [After hypnosis.]
Please begin with the opening, the gentle opening of the crown chakra. Opening the crown chakra to the white light of the universe and begin allowing the light to come through strong, brilliant, radiant, filling the crown chakra, in perfect harmony, radiating fully. Now allowing the light to come down to the head chakra, to the third eye, the pineal, filling the head chakra with the white light, vibrant white light. And slowly allowing the white light to come in to the throat center - the thyroids, parathyroids, the entire throat chakra, vibrant, alive white light - The white light of healing and protection. Allowing now the light to come into the heart chakra, filling this entire center with pulsating, vibrant light. Pure white light, brighter than it has ever been, full, alive light. And allowing now the light to come to the stomach chakra, the adrenals, filling it with white light. And now into the lower abdomen, the cells of Leydig, bringing the full light to this center, radiating, illuminating, alive. And bringing the white light now to the reproductive chakra, the flame of light, the spark, very exciting, filling the entire area, the full chakra with white light. And slowly the white light becomes a blue-white light, wholly, with trust you surrender to this spot of innocence, deep, deep in the glow of the blue-white light. The entire being is filled with the blue-white light, strong, safe. The being is filled with light. And if this is a good time, nod your head that we will continue. [She nods.] Thank you.

[The Cayce levels start here.] The light shines bright in and through the entire being. With full trust, with surrender, and with innocence, you may see yourself as a tiny dot outside of your physical body, which lies inert before you. The tiny dot is alive with energy as an atom in full motion, pulsating, vibrant, alive. The dot of light is the only light, as if in a universe of darkness. The light is oppressed by darkness, and there is a feeling of terrific loneliness. Suddenly you are conscious of a white beam of light. As this tiny dot you move upward following the light, knowing that you must follow it or be lost. Please nod your head or move your finger if you are on this beam of light, traveling on the beam of light. [She moves finger.] Thank you.
Now continue traveling on the beam of light, and as you move along the path of light you gradually become conscious of various levels upon which there is movement. Upon the first level there are vague, horrible shapes, grotesque forms such as one sees in nightmares. Passing on, there begin to appear on either side misshapen forms of human beings with some part of the body magnified. Again there is change and you become conscious of grey-hooded forms moving downward. Gradually these become lighter in color. Then the direction changes and these forms move upward and the colors of the robes grow rapidly lighter. There are no diversions but go straight to the light always. Continue straight to the light. Next there begin to appear on either side vague outlines of houses, walls, trees, etc., but everything is motionless. As you pass on there is more light and movement in what appear to be normal cities and towns. Always going straight to the light. With the growth of movement, you become conscious of sounds. At first, indistinct rumblings, then music and laughter, and the singing of birds. There is more and more light. The colors become very beautiful and there is the sound of wonderful music. You continue going directly to the light. The houses are left behind. Ahead there is only a blending of sound and color. There is a full and complete entry of Pretty Flower in her highest essence in the fullness of her being.

So far everything had been familiar, even normal. Beyond this, however, I had no idea what to expect or do. It took time and it was like groping in the dark, literally and figuratively. But clearly, my first job was to be sure the complete transfer of energies between Eileen and Pretty Flower was taking place. I said: There is a complete exiting of the body vessel - Eileen - as she makes room and parts temporarily for the full entry of Pretty Flower. The vessel spirit, the vessel being, the energy of Pretty Flower makes a complete and full entry. And in the fullness of life, a total and complete entering with no diversions, but always coming straight into the light. There is warrior strength on each side, in front, and in back to protect you, in many dimensions. There is the full protection, the full trust. And when you are ready, please tell me how you are doing and how we may assist this process. [There was no signal, so I repeated myself.] Allow the process to become full and complete. Allow ample time for the full attunement of the energy, the complete use of the temple. If you would like me to continue guiding this process, allow a full trust and a full attunement, a total entering, a total completion, a total fulfillment. Allow the physical energies to balance the soul energies. And if you would like, if the sound attunement of chanting would help to align these energies, use this time for the alignment of sound. The process becomes full. The entering becomes complete. And so it is. Eileen's body vibrated, but Pretty Flower still did not make a sound. So I said: If this is a good time, use the attunement of sound to fully balance the energies. There is warrior strength all around you. There is the protection. There is the healing energy. As the alignment becomes complete, continue to use the sound to fully balance the energy. We welcome you. We are pleased that you are here. Now Pretty Flower did speak, but in a constrained and difficult way. I said: Spirit has fully entered flesh. You are very welcome. The soul body is full. The vessel body is full. The mind body is full. Is this a time that you can speak? Hello, Pretty Flower. [She can scarcely speak.]

I have been making this transfer many more times before and would be complete. For the vessel is still in what - [she cannot speak] transformation which - a binding effect, so to speak. All the energy about to enter. [Now Pretty Flower actually screeches. Eileen's body shakes and contorts.] She wants out, so to speak, and finds the door closed! And is knocking, knocking on the door to be out! And it would be closed, so to speak! So we find a great deal of tension occurring! I understand. We will work with this. We will make the opening of the door easier, with trust, with proper technique and suggestion, with our fuller understanding, we will make the door open easy, and allow her to depart happily, safely. She would be happy to be leaving at the moment. However, the door is not to be found, sadly to say.

Obviously there was trouble. Somehow, Eileen was not able to leave her body totally. Later, she told me, "I was in the Blue Mist at the top of my head, and I was frantic! I couldn't find the door to leave, and I was pounding on the top of my head, screaming, `Let me out! Let me out!'" At the time I couldn't hear her screams, of course, but Pretty Flower's choking and screeching and the vessel's agitation gave gave me the clues I needed about what was amiss. This is where years of experience pay off. Giving the suggestion for Eileen to "leave" her body was not working. I had to approach this in a different way. Inspiration came; I told Eileen to go deeply within herself.
In the next few sessions I perfected the wording, but the concept remained - to go deeper within, to a safe and comfortable place, rather than go away from herself. (My suggestions are meant for Eileen; I am talking here to Pretty Flower, naturally. In the next few exchanges, the two of us are working to help Eileen.) I said: The door, if I understand correctly, is to be found inside. The door is deep within, and the door is at that place of trust. The door is called trust. And as she finds that place of trust, she sees the door. Would you say that again, please? The door is called trust, and it is at the place of trust, which is deep within. And as she goes to that place of trust, she sees the door. We could be proceeding a little slower. Thank you. The door is called trust. There is a sign on the door with the word trust. And as she searches deep within, she finds the door. Tell me when she finds the door that is marked trust. [Pretty Flower signals by raising her finger.] Okay. Now she places her hand.... Pretty Flower interrupted me. She said, "Now that would be, so to speak, backwards." I puzzled for a moment over this; somehow, then, I knew what she meant: The letters on the door were reversed. I said: We'll find the door where it's spelled correctly. Find the proper door. Bypass the diversions and find the real door where trust is spelled correctly: T - R - U - S - T. Find the real door, and tell me when you have accomplished this. Tell me when she has accomplished this. [She raises her finger.] Thank you.

Now she places her hand upon the door, upon the latch. Then she slowly.... It's a very big door. [Huge, Eileen told me later.] She slowly, with full strength, and courage, and determination, opens this door, and realizes that the vessel body is full. That she is not leaving the vessel empty. She realizes that two are occupying the space for one. So she opens the door, carefully, safely, slowly, using her full strength, which is considerable. Now tell me when she has opened the door. [Raises finger.] Okay, thank you. Now with full understanding and awareness, she slowly steps through the door. She allows herself, her will, her strength, her essence, to step through the door, through the threshold, into the place of trust. And tell me when she has accomplished this. [Pretty Flower signals again.] Thank you. Now in the place of trust, there is full safety. The place of trust is simply a place to wait, while the vessel is filled with her friend. She has made room for her friend, Pretty Flower, and she allows the door to close temporarily so that Pretty Flower may use the vessel. And tell me when this is accomplished. [She signals.]
Okay. Now in the fullness of light, Pretty Flower uses the vessel body. Her spirit body is attuned to the physical body. You may speak if you would like. There is a fullness of entering, a balance of energy. Welcome. Greetings. Allow the vision to become fully clear.

Pretty Flower was now clearly present. I said, "It's nice to see you." "Thank you," she said. "You're very welcome." "Now I'm fine." She made a sound. And then, to our astonishment, she opened her eyes and stood. She looked all around and looked deeply into my eyes. Then she returned to her chair, breathing a deep sigh. Let me tell you why this was such a change. I recognized when Pretty Flower was present because she laced her fingers together and placed her hands in a certain clenched position. In our earliest sessions she clenched her hands so tightly that they turned blue, and she hunched over in a such a tight and rigid position that Eileen's neck and shoulders needed massage after the session. Once, early on, I noted the blueness of the hands and asked Pretty Flower if she wished to change her posture. "Why?" she asked, and I explained. She assented to the change and I gave the appropriate suggestions. Gradually, in subsequent sessions, the tightness passed. (Once she said sassily to me, commenting on the relaxed position, "We`re getting good at this, are we not?"). But her hands and feet were almost always kept in a special way, and her eyes were always closed. Now major changes had occurred. While Pretty Flower could barely speak at this intensive level, she could, and did, open her eyes. She studied the room and the people. When she looked at me I felt very uncomfortable, for I was looking at the eyes and body of Eileen. But it was definitely not Eileen walking around, and it was not Eileen inside her eyes; it was a different person. The change was profound.
The closest I can come to describing it is when I remember the birth of my son. In 1969, my wife, Linda, and I were alone and we delivered our son. She had had two previous children of an earlier marriage, and had an easy birth. But the sounds of new life coming forth were similar. And as I think of it, a new life and opening to a new level of life are similar transformational experiences: birth and channeling. This was like the rebirthing of a soul. Perhaps the form we used previously was partly responsible for not having a full entry. Because the answer was not to go "out" or "aside," but rather to go safely and securely deep within. Or perhaps both Eileen and Pretty Flower needed more than a year to become accustomed to the preliminary steps of the channeling adventure. Whatever the reason, we were now embarking on a new dimension in Eileen's channeling.

The Exit Procedure

Presently, after about 20 minutes, Pretty Flower said, "I want to go." I responded: Okay, I thought so. Please become comfortable. Allow the vessel to become fully comfortable. Go in peace and joy. Thank you. Bless you, dear sweet soul. Thank you for coming and visiting, gentle soul. We will look forward to seeing you many times, and sharing, and communicating, and laughing. Allow the body to become fully comfortable. Allow the body to rest. And slowly, very slowly, allow the door of trust to reopen and allow her to enter through the door of trust, where you are both together. Where you come together, maybe dance together. She enters through the door of trust, and you embrace. And the vessel remains full with the energies of both of you. But soon it is time for Pretty Flower to depart, that she may return as is desired in the fullness of time and place and circumstance, when she is invited to return through this vessel. And the vessel Eileen returns with fullness of strength into her temple. And there is a return going through the levels. Returning through the level with a blending of sound and color. Returning through the level with music, laughter, and the singing of birds. Slowly returning through the level of what appeared to be normal cities and towns. And then the level where everything is motionless. Following the path of light, returning to the level of the grey-hooded forms, moving first upward and downward. And then the level of the misshapen forms of human beings. And the first levels, of grotesque forms, such as one sees in nightmares. And as the tiny dot of light, moving to the level of intense darkness and loneliness, as if it were a universe of darkness. But on the beam of light you safely enter your physical body. And the dot of light grows and fills your being with the life force. The chakra center is ablaze with white light. The entity of the proper vessel, Eileen, enters with fullness of energy, in balance and harmony, in healing. And Eileen seats herself carefully within her vessel of being, within her body vessel. You are very welcome back. And you begin the slow process of gently, gently returning to normalization. Your chakra system, leaving enough open that the physical body may work with the energy and grow through this experience. Leaving enough of the energy open to maintain health, healing balance. Allowing the light to become dimmer so that it is not too bright. Finding the full and total level of balance, that level of normalization, and allowing the centers, the reproductive center, the cells of Leydig, the solar plexus, the heart chakra, the thyroid and parathyroids of the throat, the pineal, the third eye chakra, and the crown chakra, to full normalization. There is the full and complete reentering of Eileen. The full and complete departing and saying thank you to Pretty Flower. Rest for a few moments. Allow the balance of energy. And as you are ready, signal with your hand and we will begin the count-up exercise. [After some time, she signals.] With full trust, and with thankfulness, the return is full. The return is complete.

We bid farewell for a time to our friend, Pretty Flower, and welcome joyfully our friend Eileen. In the full energy field, and in the full strength of her being, here, now. It is June 12, 1986, in Independence, Virginia, and she is fully orienting into the present. Aware of the circumstances and the time. It is approximately 4:10 p.m. in the afternoon.
You have done very well today. Take your time, take your time. And as you would like, signal me with a finger, that we may proceed. [She signals.] Thank you. We shall go very slowly. In a little while, when you awaken, you will feel better than before, energized, revitalized, recharged. The energy field in and around your body will return to full normalization. Allow the closing of the brilliant light so it may be to a point that it is healthy and beneficial.... I will count now. One, coming back. Two, coming out very slowly. Three, coming out. Four, total normalization at every level of your being. Five, feel the circulation returning to the body and the extremities. Six, revitalize. Seven, coming up to your full potential. Eight, nine, and ten. Slowly open your eyes, wide awake.

What Happened Next

This session and the subsequent full entry sessions that followed prepared Eileen and Pretty Flower for the next phase of their work. Brock had observed and learned more about guiding. The procedure I initiated in this intensive transitional session and refined in several subsequent ones in Virginia is used by Brock and Eileen today as they work together. They have refined the process still further, but its basic form is the same: Brock guides her to the door of Trust, and through it, that Eileen may exit and Pretty Flower may enter with full body synchronization. Pretty Flower too is learning the uses of Eileen's vessel. Together, Brock and Pretty Flower enjoy walks into a forest, where she works with him in a natural setting, expounding on her concepts of beliefs, creating, and unconditional love. Eileen and Pretty Flower give group sessions on a regular basis. Pretty Flower can guide her own entering and exiting process now, but Brock still guides Eileen through the Door of Trust. The vital need for a guide is always present and Brock continues this important work. Eileen has told me that the process is easier now that she has no recollection of the sessions. She has no emotional involvement and her critical conscious mind is not in the way; by totally detaching she channels more purely and elegantly. In the sessions, Pretty Flower enjoys full body movement. She tells her stories with much animation. Frequently, she asks participants to move around too. In a recent session, for instance, she asked people to change seats about half an hour into the session.
Several people had questions about their health. She asked each one in turn to come to the center of the circle, where she walked all around them, placed her hands on their bodies, made motions over them, and chanted, giving tone alignments. At the end, she asked them to stand and gather together in a circle around her. After giving a blessing to each one, she taught them to bestow the Blessings of the Universe on each other by kissing palms. Eileen describes her consciousness as "walking down a path" once she enters the door marked Trust. She enjoys her journey, while Pretty Flower does her work. At the end of the session Eileen hears herself being called and returns through the door and into her own awareness. Eileen and Brock have begun a journey around the country, offering Gatherings for all who wish to share in the blessings and teachings of Pretty Flower.